water

Today was our last homestudy visit. It was not as much of a relief as I hoped.  We were told we need to get a background clearance (which is not uncomplicated) for myself from Canada before our homestudy is final. 
It makes me want to be unfriendly to people.  To yell.  Is all this worth it I ask?
I read my post again about my trip to Ethiopia and the things I encountered there.
I hug and kiss my boys.
I look again at our family picture at the top of the page.
The reason all this is so difficult, is that we don't yet know for whom we are doing it for. 
Who is the question mark?  
If we knew it would be easier to plod on.
I'm reminded again of our verse Isaiah 43. 
It seems we are in the desert.  I need water, God will provide water.
water is tears.  water is rest/oasis.  water is strength to keep going. 
We keep going.